sunday night ritual

when i was in high school, sunday nights were kind of fun. i watched seventh heaven and ate mint chocolate chip ice cream.  it meant getting ready for the new week and it seemed like i usually had a new shirt or earrings from weekend shopping to get me excited for monday.  clean cotton sheets on the bed, clothes washed and laid out, instant oatmeal set in a bowl with a spoon.  i had a plan man.  it usually all went to hell by wednesday, but sunday night...i felt ready. 

tonight i tried to re-create this ritual.  let me tell you that it's a bit more complicated now.  because i have more responsiblilties than laying out my gym clothes and new earrings.  but i'm really working on this whole "planning" things better.  in learning about myself i have realized that i may not be a planner by nature, but i need to be one.  almost anytime i feel confident or have a success i had made a plan.  i can't tell you how many times i have kicked myself because i put off planning something important.  so i'm trying to look ahead, not too far.  just enough to encourage and inspire this crazy and spontaneous girl.

so it's funny, because for a while i've been trying to plan in my head what i want to do before i turn 30, like i might turn into a stone or just forget who i am once i hit the big 3 0.  and since i turn 30 in 4 days i think i may need to modify my plans a bit.  i don't think i will be going to india or getting a book published or going here for groceries and then having a fabulous dinner party, but i can start planning some of these big things and put them out into the universe.  because that is how every big, huge, tiny, any-thing begins.  with intent.  a plan.  and then small action steps everyday to lead us to a goal. 
well i'd better go lay out my new earrings for tomorrow.
it's a big week ahead!!

this weekend =

what is the meaning of life?

whatever you want it to be.

-james frey