Wednesday, October 24, 2012

She held my hand

Today I had to go to the dentist and get 2 cavities filled. I took Lyla and set her right next to me. I set her there so I could comfort her in case she got upset. I reached down to give her the binky and she grasped my hand with her tiny fingers. She didn't let go, and when I tensed up as the dentist drilled she squeezed my hand tighter. She knew. She comforted me, she held my hand. She is a little angel. She is sleeping next to me right now. I just can't get enough of her chubby little legs and big toothless grin that just lights up the world. Her hair is sprouting and her eyes are getting a bit darker. She laughs when daddy bounces her and she can't stop smiling when she sees Bayley. Bayley is amazing with her, she talks like a little mommy to her and is such a huge help to me. The other day I told Bayley something was farther than Timbuktu and she asked me where timbuk-one was. Tonight she put on some pretty snazzy clothes and told me she was going to a party with her stuffed animals.
Honestly, I am exhausted. My hormones are crazy and I have a little post partum depression. But these days are so very precious to me. They are amazing and tough and exactly what I've always wanted. I know that we are only guaranteed this present moment and it means more what we do right now than any big future plans do. So I try to let things go and just love. Love what I have right now, which is a whole lot.

Friday, October 5, 2012

Beautiful distractions

We just moved into a beautiful condo and I am so happy...

But I really just want to be settled and have everything put away so that I can try to function like a regular human being.

I know I am putting way too much pressure on myself. I have a 4 yr old and a 3 month old. But that's just it, I want to enjoy them because this time is going by way too fast! We have too much stuff and stuff equals time. I want to spend my time watching Lyla smile and baking cookies with Bayley. Right now I am swimming in boxes and I am tempted to just pitch it all. I will admit...
I am a blanket/quilt hoarder and a basket hoarder. Oh and a book and magazine hoarder. Ok, maybe I'm just a hoarder....
My goal is to take a few steps toward being a minimalist by Monday.