reset

i've been feeling so scattered...

like i have had so much going on in my brain that it's on overdrive and i would like to please press a reset button.

but no, i couldn't find one and i couldn't find an "easy " button that dumb staples commercial talks about either.

so i've just been keeping on auto pilot even though i really just want to say screw my to do list and obligations and go lay on the couch and eat a chocolate sheet cake and watch "you've got mail" followed by many episodes of "Dharma and Greg" whilst flipping through the magazines i haven't read.....ahhhh one day soon, because now that is also on my to do list. 

i stress out extremely easily and i really hate it, but that's just how i've always been.  yoga helps and so does acupuncture and i haven't done either in a while....add to to do list.

i wonder why i stress out so easily???

do you like broccoli???  i do, and i grew this!!!  can you believe it??!!  I am so proud!!!  Even though Adam didn't want to eat it cause the aphids kinda took over and colonized in it.  I say, extra protein and I'll take a bug (or 100) over a pesticide spray anyday!!  haha  he did take a bite and said it was good!!

I took Bayley to a dress up princess tea party and she was so cute!! 

she is changing faster than i can keep up with her, maybe thats partially why i haven't posted in a while.  i feel like i need to record every little detail of her existence because it is vanishing right before my eyes.  but i know that is not possible and i would rather just be with her than constantly "capturing the moment"  although that doesn't stop me from taking a whole bunch of pictures.  i would truly love to record every little thing we do, but we just have too much fun to be able to do that!!!

i made bayley this pink pillow case and  love it, no pattern!!!  (never used a pattern on anything though..haha)

and my beautiful friend rachel and her daughter sophie

i am so grateful to have met you

we are soul sisters : )

tomorrow we are going to san diego to see mom and grandma and auntie chara who is turning 30!!! 

 and to wish a wonderful friend good luck on his new adventures.

                                                        it should be a great weekend!!


p.s.
auto pilot works great for house cleaning. dishes and laundry caught up. check.
my creative pile...maybe next week after yoga

"IT COSTS SO much to be a full human being that there are very few who have

the enlightenment or the courage to pay the price. One has to abandon

altogether the search for security and reach out to the risk of living with

both arms open. One has to embrace the world like a lover. One has to accept

pain as a condition of existence. One has to court doubt and darkness as the

cost of knowing. One needs a will stubborn in conflict, but apt always to

total acceptance of every consequence of living and dying."

Morris West